So, here goes, a long one it will be..
Right now I am at a integrative medicine clinic in Bad Emstal called Arkadia Praxis. The reason for me being here are two. My crohns disease and my father, who persuaded me to come here.
I was diagnosed with crohns 2014. I have been without symptoms more or less this whole time…or so I thought. Underneath the surface I have had an active inflammation which now slowly has caused something on it’s way to become a stricture, which will probably lead to a operation at some point. I also now see that I am utterly and thoroughly exhausted. Exhausted because my body doesn’t have the energy needed or the nutrients needed, and exhausted under severe mental stress I have had over the past years. These two in combination with two small kids and not having very many all nights sleep in three years has taken it’s toll and has given my autoimmune disease the fuel it needs.
So.. here I am, to re-energize the body, the cells, my blood, mytocondria and all other stuff needed to take down this damn thing. Ten days of all kinds of treatment, many treatments similar to what they help cancer patients with to strenghten their systems to fight cancer.
I realize here that I really am sick. Which is a scary thing to admit but at the same time very important to admit in order to start doing something about it. I realize that life as before has to change, or I will die. Not now, not in a long time, but earlier and with lots of complications along the way. My body is cancerous, I do not have cancer but my disease and the way my body works at the moment with an over active immune system, bad flora in the gut, constant inflammation, these are all things connected to cancer in the long run.
After the ten days the real life begins, when I have to take a more active role in becoming well again. It starts with a strict diet and then goes to a little less strict but in a normal persons eyes overly so. I will eat loads and loads of anti-inflammatory supplements and if needed, also cortison. These will hopefully get the swelling down in my intestine, which in turn can get me going without surgery. And, if surgery is needed, I will be in better shape to handle the surgery and heal faster.
Mostly, I feel greatful. Greatful to have the means to be here, parents who help me in all ways possible and a husband, who I hate being away from, and miss every second. Two more days and he will come and give me the support I need to finish my ten days programme. I am also greatful I have a very mild crohns, which is treatable with lots of things before strong medication or surgery, and that I have been able to live a normal life so far, even with Crohns. The price I will pay to continue doing so is very small, tweaks in a diet and supplements, makes me greatful.